Grasping

Grasping for miracles

to bring back what is lost

Grasping for answers

to explain the meaning

behind the pain

Grasping for breath

as sobs engulf my lungs

Grasping for a vision

behind the haze of tears

Grasping for God

to hold my hand

as I drown in sorrow

Grasping to to stay afloat

as my body is weighed down

by a heart that feels like a ton of bricks

Grasping for love

and finding it in family and friends

Grasping for hope

Grasping for sleep

Grasping for rest

Grasping for silence

in a mind that never stops making noise

Grasping for noise

when all around is silence

and sadness and emptiness

Grasping for light

in a day made darker by a storm

Grasping her hand

and willing her to come back

Grasping for life

Grasping for control

Grasping for yesterday

for memories dulled by an addled mind

Grasping for joy

Grasping for peace

Grasping for comfort

Grasping for something to numb the pain

Grasping for normalcy

Grasping for strength

not just to stay standing

but to prop others too

Grasping to survive

Breathing

Inhaling

Exhaling

Taking one listless step

after another

Moving just to stop from collapsing

Hoping that someday

I will be more than just

grasping