When?

When do I stop hoping it's not true?

When willl I stop missing you?

When do I stop wishing for the impossible?

When do I stop asking why it happened at all?

When does it sink in?

How do I move on?

When does it start to make sense?

When willl the grieving be in past perfect tense?

Will I ever feel complete again?

Will I ever find peace that transcends?

Willl there ever be a day when I don't think of you?
Will I ever forgive myself for the things I did not do?

How do I make the crying stop?
How do I tell my nagging brain to shut up?
How do I tell my heart not to hurt anymore?
All this agony, what is it for?

When? How? Why?
So many questions crowd my mind.
And I have to accept that for a lot of them
The answers I just won"t find.