Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Grasping

Grasping for miracles

to bring back what is lost
Grasping for answers
to explain the meaning
behind the pain
Grasping for breath
as sobs engulf my lungs
Grasping for a vision
behind the haze of tears
Grasping for God
to hold my hand
as I drown in sorrow
Grasping to to stay afloat
as my body is weighed down
by a heart that feels like a ton of bricks
Grasping for love
and finding it in family and friends
Grasping for hope
Grasping for sleep
Grasping for rest
Grasping for silence
in a mind that never stops making noise
Grasping for noise
when all around is silence
and sadness and emptiness
Grasping for light
in a day made darker by a storm
Grasping her hand
and willing her to come back
Grasping for life
Grasping for control
Grasping for yesterday
for memories dulled by an addled mind
Grasping for joy
Grasping for peace
Grasping for comfort
Grasping for something to numb the pain
Grasping for normalcy
Grasping for strength
not just to stay standing
but to prop others too
Grasping to survive
Breathing
Inhaling
Exhaling
Taking one listless step
after another
Moving just to stop from collapsing
Hoping that someday
I will be more than just
grasping